Hunger

So I have got to thinking…

Hunger, what does that word mean? Like what does it mean to be really hungry? Do we even understand what that word means? What is it like to be so desperate for food that you are willing to do absolutely anything? What is it like to know that if you don’t get food you will soon die? What is it like to be completely starving? Us people in America really have no idea what hunger is. I recently went on a week fast, and was I hungry? Absolutely YES! But I don’t think I even began to touch the surface of what real hunger is like. I don’t think I even began to start to understand what it was like to be starving. Start to think about it. What would it be like if you did not know where your next meal would come from, what would it be like if you knew that if you did not find something to eat soon, you would die?

            Now think of that in terms of hunger for God. Us American’s again have no idea what it is like to be hungry for God. Imagine the kind of desperation to know that you just need to have God as surely as you need your next breath. What would it be like to be truly hungry for God? What would it be like to have absolutely everything else in life fade away, become completely unimportant because all that you need, desperately NEED, is God? What would it be like to say with Paul “I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish that I may gain Christ.” Philippians 3:7,8. What would it be like to have a hunger for God so deep and so strong that it would overcome even a hunger for food? What would our lives look like if we no longer cared about this world, all we desperately needed and longed for was more of God? How would we live differently if we truly were hungry for God?

            So God, I pray for that kind of hunger. I pray that you would bless me with the desperation to search after you! I pray that you would come into my heart, and would transform the places where I am complacent, where I give in to compromise, where I give in to apathy. I know that it is only you who can cause me to be hungry! I cannot put that hunger inside of myself. I long for it though! I long for it with everything in me! I want to be hungry! I want to be desperate; I want to be consumed with a desire for you! A desire so strong that EVERYTHING else in this life will fade away. God I cry out for that hunger. You said blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness for they WILL be filled. Please come and consume me with a hunger for you!

I long to know you

God I come to you

I long to know you

I long to know you

Not just to know about you

Or the correct Theology

Not just to know the answers

To the deep questions asked

Or the problems of Philosophy

But I want to know you

I long to know you as a friend

To care about what you care about

To share secrets, to share dreams

To know a love that does not end

I long to know your heart

What it is that makes you cry

What makes you angry,

And what makes you sad

The love that made you die

I long to go beyond

A knowledge of your word

I long to hear the whisper

Of your voice in my heart

To know it’s you I heard

I long to be with you

You’re the yearning of my heart

I cry to be with you

To see your smile

I never want to be apart

I need to know that you are near

To hear your heartbeat too

To feel the warmth of your embrace

My heavenly Father,

I long to know you

I long to know you

I long to know you

Dreams

Dreams, so perfect, so untouched
Dreams laying there in my heart
They lay so sweet, they lay so calm
Just leave them there and leave them be

Cause one day, if you are not careful
They will come, they will come
Not in a gentle way
Not the way you desire
But they will come

When they awake, they come
And they break your heart in two
They come and they destroy,
Like a wild hurricane with no control
They simply devastate your heart.

They come and mock
At what you thought could be
They come and destroy
And show you who you really are
The emptiness, the loneliness, the humanity

So leave them be,
Just laying in your heart,
Let them alone, and they will stay
So perfect, so untouched
Just laying there in my heart