Thursday, March 24, 2011

One life to live

Going on in life
Faster and faster I fly
Roads are slippery
Today I may die

But thinking about it not
Confidence fills my being
Peace from the storm outside
It is God I am seeing

Time flies by,
Like a runaway train
I am going on for the ride
Hanging on, just barely sane

I'm acknowledging you
But are you first in my days
Life just goes so fast
Covered in a haze

Then ice, covering my path
Suddenly my direction altered
My confidence changed
Suddenly faltered

Slipping sliding, out of control
Nothing I can do
Life turned sideways
I'm crying out to You!

Smashing, crashing, eyes squeezed shut
Completely helpless, but in your hands
Even now you are holding me
Though I don't always understand

You are my protection
When I don't understand my life
You have a story for me
Though I am wrought with strife

You put a stop to my journey
I don't know why, nor understand
But I trust in your purpose
As I trudge though this land

Thank you for your protection
From this world around me
You took my headlong rushing
And suddenly stopped my journey

You are leading me now
I choose to trust in you
You are holding my hand
In all that I go through

Life suddenly stopped
I see you face to face
I need to acknowledge you
And slow this terrible pace

One life to live
One chance to drive
What direction will I take
How will I live my life

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Love is all I have for you

Time ticks
To the strike of the clock
Heart beats
Not just empty talk
Truth lies
Searching through the time
Love lost
Or was it ever mine

Upside down
To the opposite sphere
Inside out
Maliciously torn from here
Who knows where
My heart has gone today
Time spent here
Keeping me away

‘Cause you know the story
The story of my life
You know the pain
The pain I try to hide
You know the tears
The tears from my eyes
You know love
‘Cause love is all I have for you

Life ticks
Am I losing my time
Wind blows
I have missed my line
Love passes
My time is fading
Heart cries
Is for the hating

I go on
Life doesn’t remain
Sadly drawn
Moving through the pain
Crying life
No one else to see
Run to you
You are holding me

‘Cause you know the story
The story of my life
You know the pain
The pain I try to hide
You know the tears
The tears from my eyes
You know love
‘Cause love is all I have for you

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Alone

As I walk on in life
Big plans, marvelous dreams
As I accomplish much in my life
Huge visions, wonderful accomplishments
As I move forward in life
Make a way, make a difference
I realize suddenly that I'm alone

Alone, alone, so alone
Its hard to be different
To stand against the flow
Alone, alone, so alone
Its hard to stand up,
And run for what I believe in

As I follow my Jesus
Eyes hopeful, heart expectant
As I follow His example
Pouring out, giving away
As I run after my passion
Lives touched, people changed
I realize sadly that I'm alone

Alone, alone, so alone
Its hard to be different
To stand against the flow
Alone, alone, so alone
Its hard to stand up,
And run for what I believe in

As I throw off everything
Eye's focused, heart intent
As I look to my Jesus
Loving me, holding me
As I finally see the truth
Warm embrace, loving touch
I realize suddenly that I'm not alone

I'm a child of the King
Its ok to be different
To stand against the flow
I'm a child of the King
Its a gift to stand up
And run for what I believe in

Cuase I'm a child of the King
Its ok to be different

Jaclyn Van Hierden
Nov 22, 2009

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

I want for you to have me


Why am I so stuck in this world?
Why do I love it so much?
Empty promises swirled
I hate it, I hate it!
Angry words hurled
But still it captures me!
And it hangs on so tight
And I can’t be free!
I can’t be free from it all
I fight so hard, but it has me

God!!! I want you to have me!
I want to live for you!
My life for you to be
I want to give you my heart!
I want for you to have me!

Jesus, you are so beautiful
You are so clean and pure
So wonderfully whole
And I want to give you my heart
But sin has taken its toll
I am dirty, contaminated
I am messed up by this world
I am unclean and hated
How could you ever receive me?
Your perfection would be tainted

How could you receive me?
I am anger personified
How could you love me?
I am selfish, truly nothing
God, I’m nothing, can’t you see
I am in heavy shackles
And I can’t get free
I am stuck in these manacles
I truly cannot get free
From these prison walls

God I cry out to you
I cry out
I cry out

I cry for you to set me free
My daddy, I cry out to you
I want for you to have me
I know I don’t deserve it
I don’t know why you want me
Why you would look upon me
Cause I am covered in my feces
My own vomit is all I see
My own messed up life
This weakness inside of me

But I know that I need you
I need you
I need you

God I long for you
I know I have believed the lies
But my heart desires you
I am stuck in that deception
But I truly cry out to you
I am longing to be free
I am longing to see you
To really truly see
And to know the truth
I am longing to be free

God!!! I want you to have me!
I want to live for you!
My life for you to be
I want to give you my heart!
I want for you to have me!