It's a story

Its a story. This life. That's all it is. A story. Its a love story. Can we see it? Can we believe it? A love story between God and His children. We see the pain. We see the anger and the hatred. We see the sin. We see where man has gone wrong. We see where Satan has messed up the perfection. But do we see the story? That is what its all about. The story. Its a love story. An intense love story. One that goes far beyond the brutality of this world. It seems cliché, but its true. Life is a story. And God's love is the center. The center. The very center. But not only the center. It fills every other part as well. Because that is the story. Love. It is an overwhelming, overpowering, impossible love. But that is the story. We see the impossible pain in this world, and we say, how can that be the story. We see the intense evil, and we conclude, that can't be love. But we don't see the full story. We don't see the message underlying it all. We don't see the love. But we just need our eyes to be opened. We need to see. Because there is the power of the story. And once we have seen. Once we have seen. It is NEVER the same again. NEVER the same. This world is trivial. The pain is shallow. I'm not undermining pain, but it is so shallow compared to the love. Because love is the story. And love goes deeper than the deepest pain. Love was before pain is. LOVE created this world, and LOVE will finish this world. We CAN walk through the valley of the shadow of death because of the LOVE. Because the LOVE is deeper than death. Its the story. It is all about the story. We can face death, but what will we see. Beyond the death, beyond the pain, beyond the anger, the self-hatred, the sadness, the rejection, the loneliness, the depression. Is the story. Lets get caught up in the story. Forget about this trivial world. Lets go deep. Go beyond. Lets find the story, and ruin our lives. Ruin our lives for this world. Ruin our lives for what this world says is valuable. Because we have found the story. And our lives are changed. Changed. Completely. Forever. Changed. Because of LOVE!  

You have a story

Oh God, you have a story for me

You have a story

You have a story

Oh Father, you have a plan for me

You have a plan

You have a plan

I know I don't always see

I don't always see the truth (see the truth)

I know I don't always understand

I don't always understand you (understand you)

But I believe, I believe

I only see this world

My eyes are so blinded (so blinded)

I only see my own life

I am so self-centered (so self-centered)

But I know, I know

Oh God, you have a story for me

You have a story

You have a story

Oh Father, you have a plan for me

You have a plan,

You have a plan

So please break through these walls

These walls that cut you out (cut you out)

Please cut through to my heart

My heart that longs for you (longs for you)

'Cause I'm hungry, I'm hungry

My heart is crying out

Crying out to you (out to you)

My heart is bleeding without life

'Cause I know that I need you (I need you)

So please fill me, fill me

Oh God, you have a story for me

You have a story

You have a story

Oh Father, you have a plan for me

You have a plan,

You have a plan

Its your love

Its the pain inside that keeps me running

Its the fear that stops me still

Its the Jesus I see that keeps me going

Its the love that gets me still

I don't understand this pain inside

I don't know the reasons why

But I know, I know, I know,

That you got, you got a better plan

You want so much more for me

You want so, so much more

You wanna love me, love me still

You wanna love beyond my pain

Its the rejection I feel that keeps me crying

Its the lies that steal my joy

Its the unbelief inside that stops my trying

Its the anger that takes the joy

I don't understand this pain inside

I don't know the reasons why

But I know, I know, I know,

That you got, you got a better plan

You want so much more for me

You want so, so much more

You wanna love me, love me still

You wanna love beyond my pain

Its your love inside that keeps me pushing

Your life that give me peace

Its your acceptance that gets me loving

Its your love that gives release

One life to live

Going on in life

Faster and faster I fly

Roads are slippery

Today I may die

But thinking about it not

Confidence fills my being

Peace from the storm outside

It is God I am seeing

Time flies by,

Like a runaway train

I am going on for the ride

Hanging on, just barely sane

I'm acknowledging you

But are you first in my days

Life just goes so fast

Covered in a haze

Then ice, covering my path

Suddenly my direction altered

My confidence changed

Suddenly faltered

Slipping sliding, out of control

Nothing I can do

Life turned sideways

I'm crying out to You!

Smashing, crashing, eyes squeezed shut

Completely helpless, but in your hands

Even now you are holding me

Though I don't always understand

You are my protection

When I don't understand my life

You have a story for me

Though I am wrought with strife

You put a stop to my journey

I don't know why, nor understand

But I trust in your purpose

As I trudge though this land

Thank you for your protection

From this world around me

You took my headlong rushing

And suddenly stopped my journey

You are leading me now

I choose to trust in you

You are holding my hand

In all that I go through

Life suddenly stopped

I see you face to face

I need to acknowledge you

And slow this terrible pace

One life to live

One chance to drive

What direction will I take

How will I live my life

Love is all I have for you

Time ticks

To the strike of the clock

Heart beats

Not just empty talk

Truth lies

Searching through the time

Love lost

Or was it ever mine

Upside down

To the opposite sphere

Inside out

Maliciously torn from here

Who knows where

My heart has gone today

Time spent here

Keeping me away

‘Cause you know the story

The story of my life

You know the pain

The pain I try to hide

You know the tears

The tears from my eyes

You know love

‘Cause love is all I have for you

Life ticks

Am I losing my time

Wind blows

I have missed my line

Love passes

My time is fading

Heart cries

Is for the hating

I go on

Life doesn’t remain

Sadly drawn

Moving through the pain

Crying life

No one else to see

Run to you

You are holding me

‘Cause you know the story

The story of my life

You know the pain

The pain I try to hide

You know the tears

The tears from my eyes

You know love

‘Cause love is all I have for you

Alone

As I walk on in life
Big plans, marvelous dreams
As I accomplish much in my life
Huge visions, wonderful accomplishments
As I move forward in life
Make a way, make a difference
I realize suddenly that I'm alone

Alone, alone, so alone
Its hard to be different
To stand against the flow
Alone, alone, so alone
Its hard to stand up,
And run for what I believe in

As I follow my Jesus
Eyes hopeful, heart expectant
As I follow His example
Pouring out, giving away
As I run after my passion
Lives touched, people changed
I realize sadly that I'm alone

Alone, alone, so alone
Its hard to be different
To stand against the flow
Alone, alone, so alone
Its hard to stand up,
And run for what I believe in

As I throw off everything
Eye's focused, heart intent
As I look to my Jesus
Loving me, holding me
As I finally see the truth
Warm embrace, loving touch
I realize suddenly that I'm not alone

I'm a child of the King
Its ok to be different
To stand against the flow
I'm a child of the King
Its a gift to stand up
And run for what I believe in

Cuase I'm a child of the King
Its ok to be different

Jaclyn Van Hierden
Nov 22, 2009

I want for you to have me

Why am I so stuck in this world?

Why do I love it so much?

Empty promises swirled

I hate it, I hate it!

Angry words hurled

But still it captures me!

And it hangs on so tight

And I can’t be free!

I can’t be free from it all

I fight so hard, but it has me

God!!! I want you to have me!

I want to live for you!

My life for you to be

I want to give you my heart!

I want for you to have me!

Jesus, you are so beautiful

You are so clean and pure

So wonderfully whole

And I want to give you my heart

But sin has taken its toll

I am dirty, contaminated

I am messed up by this world

I am unclean and hated

How could you ever receive me?

Your perfection would be tainted

How could you receive me?

I am anger personified

How could you love me?

I am selfish, truly nothing

God, I’m nothing, can’t you see

I am in heavy shackles

And I can’t get free

I am stuck in these manacles

I truly cannot get free

From these prison walls

God I cry out to you

I cry out

I cry out

I cry for you to set me free

My daddy, I cry out to you

I want for you to have me

I know I don’t deserve it

I don’t know why you want me

Why you would look upon me

Cause I am covered in my feces

My own vomit is all I see

My own messed up life

This weakness inside of me

But I know that I need you

I need you

I need you

God I long for you

I know I have believed the lies

But my heart desires you

I am stuck in that deception

But I truly cry out to you

I am longing to be free

I am longing to see you

To really truly see

And to know the truth

I am longing to be free

God!!! I want you to have me!

I want to live for you!

My life for you to be

I want to give you my heart!

I want for you to have me!