I wonder how long

Snow falling, lazy and slow

Perfect flakes in the fading twilight

I dance, under the perfection of it all

Under the beauty of God’s wonderful touch

And I wonder how long

Darkness bleak and black

So thick I cannot see

I cry, under the weight of it all

Under the horror of Satan’s grasp

And I wonder how long

Two worlds, fighting within

I know who I am

I know where I am going

But I put on a mask to this world

And I wonder how long

How long do I hide

Beneath this flimsy facade

I’m longing for someone to see

What really lies beneath

And I wonder how long

What truths can be told

What secrets made known

I have nothing, nothing to hide

Yet somehow I cannot be free

And I wonder how long

God I want to be open

I want to be free

I don’t care what man knows

Cause I am living for you

And still I wonder how long

Cause always I have to hide

I constantly have to be on guard

I cannot just let go

I am chained inside

And I wonder how long

How long oh God how long?

I long for eternity with you

Where I won’t have to hide

You will break these chains

And I won’t have to wonder how long