Take up your cross

Jesus said,

You must deny yourself

Take up your cross daily

And lose your own life

If you want to live for me

And I said

Ok, I will follow

I will give up my all

That makes sense to me

I will obey your call

Then Jesus said

I don’t just want the outside

I want your whole being

I’m asking for your heart

I am asking for everything

And I responded

Jesus, you can have it all

But just not this one thing

Can I still hold on to it

I can’t quite give everything

And Jesus said

It you want to follow me

You cannot live in compromise

I am asking for it all

One thing can be your demise

And my heart cried

I cannot give this up

I can’t take the pain inside

This is like dying

I just want to hide

Jesus softly answered

I know my precious child

I asked you to take up your cross

To take it where I lead you

And count it all as loss

And finally I screamed

Ok God I surrender

To you I give it all

Kill me, kill my flesh

I need to follow your call

I am dying, and it hurts

I don’t like this pain at all

But I will lose my life

I have to follow your call

And Jesus cried

The tears fell down his face

He came and hugged me tight

My child I feel your pain

I too have faced a fight

But I have a promise for you

On which you can depend

Whoever loses their life

Will save it in the end