God, I don't understand

God, there is something inside

That says I cannot believe
In whom I think you are
In the truths that I perceive
 
There disillusionment with you
In the faith that I profess
Because of the pain I see
And somehow dare to confess
 
I’m angry with this world
And the unfairness that I see
There is confusion swirled
In whom I want you to be
 
Why do you leave your children
In darkness and despair
No matter how they pray
They seem to grasp at air
 
Why do you leave your created
Those who don’t believe in Christ
To an eternity in hell
With an unending Geist
 
I don’t understand your love
And how you say you care
When you reject you own
I don’t know how you dare
 
I’m angry with you God
And I barely dare to say
Because you have power
You always have your way
 
I know you are God
And who am I but man
I know I don’t understand
That somehow you have a plan?
 
I don’t see the whole picture
And thus I am angry
I only look at the injustice
And the pain I see so clearly
 
I know there is more to the story
Simply because there has to be
And so I choose to trust
Even though I cannot see
 
I trust in a God I do not know
A God I cannot perceive
I place myself in emptiness
A vulnerability to achieve
 
You may reject or hurt me
I truly do not know
If I go off of what I see
That’s what records show
 
So trust it is, but shaky too
But it’s all I have to show
From a lifetime of living
The path that Christians know