Aloneness

Aloneness,

The vice in which I hide

The place I find security

The residence in which I abide

I used to run from it

With fear of what I would discover

I used to be terrified

Of what aloneness would uncover

I pushed to be around people

Always avoiding alone

I never took time to stop

And to myself be known

Aloneness was a fear

I avoided at all costs

I hid from it like the plague

Afraid that in it I would be lost

But now I fear I have switched

And aloneness is where I abide

I’ve found a security in it

And now from others I hide

I’ve gone from dependence

To an insistence on my own

I’m hiding in independence

I’m desperate to be alone

But I know that it isn’t right

I need to share my pain

I have to move to interdependence

Before security can reign