Crossroads

Every day is a crossroads

And time will tell

How the choices are made

Will express themselves

Pain is real

And so is joy

Life is rough

To the end

Every day is a crossroads

And only time will tell

What choice made today

Will bring forth tomorrow

Today is here

Tomorrow is not

Choices are made

Time will tell

Everyday is a crossroads

Every moment a choice

What path will be taken

What steps be made

Focus is short

Lens made blurry

Here is clear

Tomorrow is not

Every day is a crossroads

What path to take

The highway is there

The narrow road hard

People seem happy

From the outside

Hiding the pain

In the inside

Every day is a crossroads

A choice to be made

Life is a decision

Stand strong on truth

Take up your cross

Jesus said,

You must deny yourself

Take up your cross daily

And lose your own life

If you want to live for me

And I said

Ok, I will follow

I will give up my all

That makes sense to me

I will obey your call

Then Jesus said

I don’t just want the outside

I want your whole being

I’m asking for your heart

I am asking for everything

And I responded

Jesus, you can have it all

But just not this one thing

Can I still hold on to it

I can’t quite give everything

And Jesus said

It you want to follow me

You cannot live in compromise

I am asking for it all

One thing can be your demise

And my heart cried

I cannot give this up

I can’t take the pain inside

This is like dying

I just want to hide

Jesus softly answered

I know my precious child

I asked you to take up your cross

To take it where I lead you

And count it all as loss

And finally I screamed

Ok God I surrender

To you I give it all

Kill me, kill my flesh

I need to follow your call

I am dying, and it hurts

I don’t like this pain at all

But I will lose my life

I have to follow your call

And Jesus cried

The tears fell down his face

He came and hugged me tight

My child I feel your pain

I too have faced a fight

But I have a promise for you

On which you can depend

Whoever loses their life

Will save it in the end

I wonder how long

Snow falling, lazy and slow

Perfect flakes in the fading twilight

I dance, under the perfection of it all

Under the beauty of God’s wonderful touch

And I wonder how long

Darkness bleak and black

So thick I cannot see

I cry, under the weight of it all

Under the horror of Satan’s grasp

And I wonder how long

Two worlds, fighting within

I know who I am

I know where I am going

But I put on a mask to this world

And I wonder how long

How long do I hide

Beneath this flimsy facade

I’m longing for someone to see

What really lies beneath

And I wonder how long

What truths can be told

What secrets made known

I have nothing, nothing to hide

Yet somehow I cannot be free

And I wonder how long

God I want to be open

I want to be free

I don’t care what man knows

Cause I am living for you

And still I wonder how long

Cause always I have to hide

I constantly have to be on guard

I cannot just let go

I am chained inside

And I wonder how long

How long oh God how long?

I long for eternity with you

Where I won’t have to hide

You will break these chains

And I won’t have to wonder how long

Wandering

Wandering, to and fro
Wandering up and down
Wandering here and there
Wandering through the town

I feel like I am wandering
Through this confusing existance
I don't know where I am going
Nothing I find makes sence
God I am looking to you
To find my lost heart
I am longing for you to find me
To keep me from falling apart

Wandering, to and fro
Wandering up and down
Wandering here and there
Wandering through the town

I don't know how to live
Live without compromise
I don't know how to give everything
I'm am feeling my demise
I want to surrender it all
But when I take up my cross
Instead of finding myself
All I feel is loss
I feel the pain inside
I don't know what to do
I don't know how to give
My whole heart to you

Wandering, to and fro
Wandering up and down
Wandering here and there
Wandering through the town

God, today I choose
To trust in your promises
Even though I am so lost
I believe you will heal my mess
I believe you will find
The lostness that I am
You will be here for me
And show me where I am

Pilgrim

I am a pilgrim here

I am simply passing through

I wonder why I don’t belong

I don’t fit, no matter what I do

And I realize

It is not a surprise

Cause I am a pilgrim here

I am just passing through

This world is not my home

I am yearning for You

I am longing

My heart is searching

For the reality of my home

Nothing can compare

To knowing I belong

I can’t wait to be there

Cause I feel the hurting

My heart is throbbing

I am not made for this earth

I am simply passing through

I am created for eternity

I am made to be with You

I need the grace

To seek your face

To look forward to my home

I know that through the bitterness

You will bring forth springs

And wash away my loneliness

So in all I do

I look to you

You will be my strength

And give me autumn rain

You will bring forth pools

And carry me through my pain

The Battle

Light and Darkness

Wrestling, Fighting, Destroying

Darkness and Light

Pulling, Struggling, Combating

Pain against freedom

Life against death

Passion against apathy

Fighting to the last breath

What a horrible war

The pain is unbearable

What an awful fight

The darkness is terrible

How do I fight

With nothing left in me

How do I love

When hate is all I see

How do I keep passion

When somehow it simply dies

How do I get up again

When all I see are lies

This is a terrible battle

Of epic proportions

This is more than a war

Of powerful conclusions

So God I run to you

With my broken armour

With my tattered heart

I have nothing more

I run into your arms

I trust in your power

I come to your fortress

In this fateful hour

You are over this battle

You carry supremacy

You have ordained this war

To overcome the enemy  

So, I know I have to get up again

I know I still have to go back

But I believe you will give me strength

To fill in where I lack

I know I still have to fight

And the thought fills me with dread

But I believe in your power

And the words that you have said

Remember, you reflect me

Worthless.

You are worthless, he says

Useless, insignificant, rubbish

He says

And she believes

Takes it all in

She believes every word

She is worthless

Useless, insignificant, rubbish

The words circling in her mind

It is the truth she says

And so she walks on

Useless, insignificant rubbish

Heavy words, slowing killing her spirit

She walks, head down

Shoulders slumped

Carrying the weight of these words

A burden far too heavy

For her slender shoulders

She makes her way down to the pond

The immensity weighing on her

One slow step at a time

Discouragement drowning her

As she murmurs under her breath

Useless, insignificant, rubbish

Round and round they go

Why not help this world

And remove from it

The useless, insignificant, rubbish

She comes upon the pond

Tears running down her cheeks

Looking into the water

She backs up slowly

Startled by what she sees

It is the face of Jesus

Looking back at her

Not her own reflection

Messed up lonely life

Instead she sees perfection

My daughter,

You reflect me

Don’t believe the lies

I have made you clean

Remember you reflect me

Useless, Insignificant, Rubbish

Where have those words gone

Somehow they suddenly vanished

They cannot describe Jesus

So have no place left to land

Remember you reflect me

Words circling in her mind

Joyfully walking

Head held high

Something changed inside

Remember you reflect me

What a refrain

Over and over in her mind

Useless, Insignificant, Rubbish

Gone forever

Remember you reflect me

Oh what a joyful sound

Remember you reflect me

Words so full of life

Remember you reflect me